A cut of your lies, smiles through the sharpness
These shards of glass, I grab through my eyes
A snuffed candle for my stride

A whisper from black came to rush away my fears
A caged lullaby came for my bird
Here I’m hanged, like a white cloth on steeple

As I breathe less for my cyst
My intravenous scour

I’m just a gaffe, just a sclaff,
Just a chaff, just a laugh

A scar much mangled
A regret in wonder

In a rain of vomited glands
Fresh set of hands
Wet sand to cover us

Mouth full of kidneys
Sprinkled over with spleen

My face in the glass, in a grasp
In a clamp, just a laugh

It’s just the way it is
My Liszt Symphony

A cut of your lies, hum through the darkness
A tasteless craft, as I march into the sky
A snuffed candle for my fight

A whisper from black came to dust away my fears
A caged lullaby came for my bird

In my darkest hour

Even I’ve had enough me
I’ve had enough me
Sleep tight

I wish you could hear these
Distant rumblings of my heart’s train
Treacherous lights flickering on the tracks of our hope
The signals passing me by all laugh

I wish you could hear me
Singing songs of all I couldn’t say
Searching beneath these bridges for what I once wanted
My clouds of shame drawn in pictographs

I’m in a fight inside
Wishing I held you
Instead I let you fly, fly… why
Questioning answers
I thought I was the man
I’m learning once again who I am
I wane, wane, wane

I’m still in the rain
Drenched in memories
Dripping down in your name
From late night calls
To these numbers I can’t recall
From pulling me close
To no one’s asking at all
I’m still in the rain

Would you hear these
Nimble echoes strummed in these drops
These strings singing lullabies of my soul
Searching for a frequency to your rhythm
Once more

I’m trying to find inside
A courage to speak once again this time
You spoke and I know I turned away
I could’ve tried a different way
In this fail, fail, fail

Maybe it’s okay
This is the road I have to take
Hoping these words blanket you warm

I guess I might not ever change
All my masks, they just washed away
Lying on these rails, waiting for sun to come up again

I’m still in this rain
Don’t wanna hurt you again by staying with you
Don’t wanna put you through all this pain
I wish I still held, now I’m just holding on

We’re in the rain
We’re different colors running in the same rainbow
A burning touch rigarmorting for what I’ve longed
I hope my journey bring me back to you again
In this rain