Selfless - Natalia Kallay

“Selfless” is written, composed, arranged, produced, mixed, performed and released by Natalia Kallay.
Listen to Selfless here: https://www.twine.net/signin

The inspiration behind Selfless was to create a sad, angry and vulnerable concept, to represent the emotions we feel when we’re in a relationship giving everything we have and creating what we don’t for the other one, while completely emptying and losing ourselves, whether we notice it or not, and still not getting the love we so much desire. I really wanted to reflect how some actions from the people we love towards us are completely impossible to understand. Good thing we don’t always have to understand, we can just close the door and leave. Your heart radiates light & you are strong enough to build a better tomorrow for yourself. The life that you deserve.

I wrote Selfless when I was 17 about someone who was really special to me, but who I was never special for. I spent 5 years in love with this person but they were never with me. It was complicated and heartbreaking for me, it was easy for them. When you keep giving everything you have even whilst breaking, you keep shapeshifting into someone you’re not and accepting behaviors you know you shouldn’t. You keep finding happiness in the bare minimum, in one good action, just to see them conformed and convince yourself they’re changing finally, because you love them more than anything. You depend on them and you believe one day they will care and they will change; maybe one day they will be good to you and for you.

These feelings and this vulnerability usually come from a lack of self-love and self-care. You may think about yourself that you’re so confident and secure, that you don’t need anybody and that you know how to be alone; but if you can’t put up boundaries in your relationships, if you can’t protect your peace from fear of being alone, if you love everything you do but you lose yourself as soon as you like someone, or fall in love with potential rather than credentials… you have some work to do still. Because you’re not doing it. Hard pill to swallow, truth unfolds with time. And if you don’t run away while you still can, you may end up wasting all your life and your potential beside a narcissistic, insecure and ungrateful person, who obviously sees your worth and knows how wonderful you are, it just bothers them to know so they hope you will never realize it. Because as soon as you do, they know you will leave.

Love yourself first. The only one who’s always been there for you is you. The only one who knows your battles and who has survived them is you.
Life is a second, and the last person who’ll hold your hand when you close your eyes, is your own reflection.